random thoughts...

am living like I am dying I am laughing like I am crying I am letting go, like I am still trying I am okay like I am not fine I realize its all in the past like a feeling it could have last, I think I have moved on like there is nowhere I belong,

I’ve forgotten the meaning of a kiss, like it meant the taste of your lips I think of sunshine, but I imagine an eclipse. I know life will bring more, like leaving me behind a closed door, I'll survive every pain, like dying every night was not a fun game, I stay awake in sleep, like I have more promises to keep.

I believed every word you said, like beautiful lies didn't exist. Heartache is only imaginary, like I'm begging for a cure, its not like you're never happy again, like I can recall the last time I was, it hurts but its not the end of the world, like there is more to lose? life is not just about 'love', like love is all there is to life.

shattered and forgotten.

Trapped within, and barely breathing.I have lost everything I once believed in.Lost inside, my heart has hidden.I won’t trust again, it is forbidden.Imploring darkness entreats my body for a place to dwell.Numb with grief, I beseech the stain to spread, hollowing me out like a shell.Sequestered with my shattered illusions, my endless memories,

Alone I break as I watch my dreams fragment around me.Newly deranged, you have left me feeling forever disgraced.Isolated figure, you ended my existence, causing me to vanish without a trace.This is what you did to me my beautiful and sadistic lie.You’re the cause, the reason why I no longer wish to stay alive.Trapped within, and barely breathing.I have lost everything I once believed in

.Lost inside, my heart has hidden.I won’t trust again, it is forbidden.Nothingness is slowly overtaking my soul.Unrequited wrongs only adding to this vacant holeMadness offers my mind a powerful escape with its divine presence.Beautiful chaos all around as my spirit at last decides to rest.